Ladies and Gentlemen it has been a minute.
I used to love coming onto this website and putting out a new blog every Sunday that allowed me to research fun topics about health and fitness and to feed that curiosity. Although I still get the bill for the domain name and the website, I have left this website to fade into the background. No longer did I have my medium to share interesting fitness news with friends and family.
To be honest, it was because I took on more and more projects after starting this one. I started a full time job, which then turned into writing articles for them, which eventually evolved into the position of Director of Social Media.
I also started dog walking, which was fun but time consuming.
I just took on a lot and let me first passion project take a back seat. It felt like a job and I already had enough of those so I let the one with the least amount of accountability fade into the background.
As many of us do at the end of the year, I have taken some time to reflect. I have had a fair amount of time to reflect due to the fact that I got a bad throat infection just shortly after Christmas. It was the results of pushing myself too hard and not have any real boundaries for myself, despite knowing better.
The idea of boundaries feels like an ongoing issue with them. I rarely know when to say no, sometimes I overstep my boundaries, and I let people overstep my boundaries far too easily. I worked way too much for what I was making in the past. I hardly had time for friends or family, and I always felt like I had to rush through interactions, work, and workouts.
For 2020 I'd like to put that in the past and focus on a future where I can balance work, family, and my social life. I want to be payed what I am worth, so I can pay of debts, and enjoy holidays with friends and family more often. I want to have projects that I enjoy doing, and nothing more than that. I also need to learn to take on only what I can realistically handle.
A new year can be about setting new goals and new intentions, and I intend to do both. This time I don't want to feel superficial or forced with those goals or intentions. I'd love to continue offering personal training, but in a more limited way and a way that is more realistic with what I can handle. I will eventually be opening up a section on this website where you'll be able to find free and cheap workout plans and programs. This achieves my goal of bringing fitness and education to more people at a more affordable price, but also separates me from the more time-intensive stresses of hands-on personal training. As much as I loved being a personal trainer, it doesn't make sense for me to have 15 online clients, while also carrying my marketing job, and my responsibilities here in Sweden.
What I would like to accomplish this year is a sense of stability. Stability in finances, in relationships, and in my own mental health.
Life dealt some pretty heavy cards these last few years and I can see now that I have found a few unhelpful crutches to help me out. I'd like to use fewer of these crutches and develop healthier coping mechanisms. Because staying out late, isolating myself with a bag of candy, and spending time with people who I know don't make me a better person are simply not what I imagined for myself when I was a kid dreaming of how cool it would be to be a grown up.
They say that your 20's are the best years of your life. Well I intend to make the 2020's much better than the last few years of my life. It feels cheesy to say it because everyone hopes for that whenever a new year begins, but f*ck it, I am going for it. Even if I have to tattoo it somewhere on my body to remind myself, I plan on committing to a great new decade.
Cheers to 2020.
Riri's Discoveries blog documents Riri's most recent research, her travel adventures, and her personal fitness journey.